WIlmington, North Carolina My fav beachie area

Jamaica

Going to jamaica in FIVE weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

live on

I wake and hearing it raining.
Were I dead, what would I give
Lazily to lie here,
Like this, and live?

Or better yet: birdsong,
Brightening and spreading --
How far would I come then
To be at the world's wedding?

Now that I lie, though,
Listening, living,
(Oh, but not forever,
Oh, end arriving)

How shall I praise them:
All the sweet beings
Eternally that outlive
Me and my dying?

Mountains, I mean; wind, water, air;
Grass, and huge trees; clouds, flowers,
And thunder, and night.

Turtles, I mean, and toads; hawks, herons, owls;
Graveyards, and towns, and trout; roads, gardens,
Red berries, and deer.

Lightning, I mean, and eagles; fences; snow;
Sunrise, and ferns; waterfalls, serpents,
Green islands, and sleep.

Horses, I mean; butterflies, whales;
Mosses, and stars and gravelly
Rivers, and fruit.

Oceans, I mean; black valleys; corn;
Brambles, and cliffs; rock, dirt, dust, ice;
And warnings of flood.

How shall I name them?
And in what order?
Each would be first.
Omission is murder.

Maidens, I mean, and apples; needles; leaves;
Worms, and planers, and clover; whirlwinds; dew;
Bulls; geese --

Stop. Lie still.
You will never be done.
Leave them all there.
Old lover. Live on.


-Morning Worship by Mark van Doren

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Allergies

I'm so tired of having horrible nightmares every night. I stopped watching scary movies because I can't stop having such vivid dreams of death, suffocation, drowning, being chased, etc. At first I thought it was because I was crazy in the head (maybe I am jusssst a little), but I think it's because of my allergies. I just can't sleep well these days. I wake up so often during the night to blow my nose or to sneeze. It's pretty disgusting. Oh, and my three jindo gaes don't help the situation... they bark so much during the night.

I need to go to my allergist again and see if I can get a stronger medication... or maybe I'll get acupuncture.

I'm constantly tired and sometimes I'm scared to sleep. It's so vivid that sometimes I forget which was a dream and which was reality.

ugh.